Just The Way I Am

In the Alexander Technique there is the idea of self-acceptance and non-judging yourself..or in other words, giving yourself permission to be exactly as you are. Lately I have been laid up with a broken femur ..well more so recovering from surgery for a broken femur.  Every day I try and push myself a little bit more to see what I can do. Perhaps this is not what many would consider being kind of gentle with myself but I feel it is the right thing to do. I do not push myself beyond my limits. I feel accomplished and satisfied knowing what I can do and knowing what to work towards. People tell me to "rest" and "stop trying to do so much". This is not me. I have never been one to slow down much. This used to really bother me but lately I have come to realize (and slowly accept) that this is who I am. Yes, I do enjoy resting at the end of the day just like every other person but I am not one to laze about all day.  Most times I ENJOY being active and being with others, learning about different things. This is who I am.  When the time comes I will rest when I need it. Do I overdo it sometimes and end up frustrated from trying to do too much too soon? You bet! But I learn not to do that again. I'm learning that is who I am AND I'm learning to accept that without judging myself. As they say in the Alexander Technique " I am free to be me." After all that is who God loves!